granny, forever and always

07/ 10/ 2013   2:48am


dear granny,


it's 9hours before i will last see you in my lifetime,

thank you for loving me. thank you for raising me up well. thank you for everything.

i cannot fully express everything, i cannot even cry it all out.. i am just hanging on to the memories of my childhood and the knowledge that i am forever loved by you.  

much as i have wanted to take care of you like you did to me, i never got the chance. and for that i am so sorry.  

granny, for me, it will just be like you're in tuao, im in manila. and that i can always go home to you. iloveyousomuch gran.. 

iloveyousomuch granny. i will never forget you and the love you have given me. i am forever grateful that i grew up under your care. iloveyousomuch.

imissyou so much already granny. i know you never want to see me crying even when i was a kid. i will try hard to not cry. but allow me if only to remember that i am just human. that i will never have everything i want. as much as i want you to forever be around, it cant happen. 

no goodbyes granny. definitely no goodbyes..

i will never let go of you, of all the memories. i will keep them forever and have them to remind me that God loves me so much that He gave me the chance to experience the blessing of your life in mine.

i would have wanted you to be there when i take my oath as a lawyer. it was part of the plan. but truly, God's plans are better than mine. i know you will be there. i know you will always be with me in everything i will do, like you always did. the bar, my oath, my wedding.. every special and ordinary day in my life, you will be there. 
you need not worry about my asthma gran, or the "kudkud my back". your baby is now a lady. 


love,
gayleput

hope for the flowers

When FAILURE strikes, one might think succumbing to "giving up."

But failure over failure taught me something, "My family believes in me, that's what matters most."


My first of the month read is Trina Paulus' "HOPE FOR THE FLOWERS."

"... What's at the top?..--- no one knows that either but it must be awfully good because everybody's rushing there."

"..He didn't think he was against anybody. He was just doing what he had to if he was to get to the top.---..I've been up there; there's nothing there."

To get to the top, one must fly, not climb. 

a stripe just needs a yellow, who believes in him.


---happily hoping, stripe (=

Happy first of July!