on training, to be positive

This Training which has been going on for five months  has really been pushing me to my limits. I've waited for it for a year and I'm in so much hurry that it end NOW. It is ending soon and I hope the soonest I get over this, the better.

I want to start another chapter of my life already.

I've never been as tired. Emotionally, physically, mentally and even my bank account is crying.

I pray for strength.

I pray for the positivism to keep going and FINISH this.


Dear Papa G,

Help us to end 2013 and start 2014 with positive feedback of our outputs.

iloveyou.

Trainee, Gayle.

on being happy for the simple things

While we were hurdling Ortigas traffic last night, Bab and I were discussing our thoughts and prayers from the Immaculate Concepcion mass we attended separately. We usually have these serious talks when we are on the road. It maybe because during these moments that we find silence in the midst of the noise from the road hustle.

I was telling him that I am happy. I may not have everything I want but I have everything I need at the exact moment. I have nothing more to ask, I told him. And he tells me, "Ung bar na lang."

I paused for a moment and remembered the dream and HOPE of passing the bar exams. I answered, "He did not bring me to this if He will not bring me through this." I know in my heart I will have that prayer answered in His right time. I will never doubt God's plans for me. His plans are bigger than mine. And I am taking it one day at a time.

As for everyday, I know my "thank you's" will never be enough for all the blessings He has continually given me and my family.   

I don't know why all of a sudden I got this "very" serene disposition. The past weeks were getting the best of me to the point of almost giving up work and just wait for better days. But then prayer really makes miracles. I left it all to God's hands.

These days, the material things don't matter that much anymore. Simple moments make me happy. Just spending time with Bab makes me happy. And last night, letting him know my heart's contents felt great.

Me: "Pansin mo lately hindi na tayo nag-aaway?"

B: "Ungae. Bumait ka, ewan ko anong nangyari."

Papa G, thank you for keeping me through all of my life's ups and downs. This life is a miracle. I am your greatest miracle. And thank you so much for making me happy.

happy thanskgiving 2013

Happy thanksgiving!

There's so much I am thankful for.. My life, my family and my everyday.

Thank you Papa G,

for yesterday, 
for today,
for tomorrow,
for my parents,
for my sister,
for babee,
his family,
his friends,
my lola's,
my titas,titos,
cousins, 
friends- gradeschool, highschool, college, law
teachers and professors,
bosses and workmates at the DILG,
batch 48 and this training,
my work, 
my education,

for everything that I have and
everything that I don't have,

for the strength to go on,

and all the love that keeps me going on.

on starting over and over again

It has been a long time since I blogged. 

Life has been amazing, fun, SAD, tiring for me.

A lot has happened,

leaving for the 48th Batch training,

living at the Local Government Academy for 53 days,

the 2013 Bar,

being assigned at DILG Mandaluyong,

feeling the toll of all the sad events in my life.

I came to a point of giving up, up until now, I still have that nagging bad vibes.

I wish I can get over this NOW.  It is my constant prayer to let go of my insecurities. I pray for enthusiasm to do everything as they have been.

I hope that STARTING TODAY, I live to become the better version of me.

granny, forever and always

07/ 10/ 2013   2:48am


dear granny,


it's 9hours before i will last see you in my lifetime,

thank you for loving me. thank you for raising me up well. thank you for everything.

i cannot fully express everything, i cannot even cry it all out.. i am just hanging on to the memories of my childhood and the knowledge that i am forever loved by you.  

much as i have wanted to take care of you like you did to me, i never got the chance. and for that i am so sorry.  

granny, for me, it will just be like you're in tuao, im in manila. and that i can always go home to you. iloveyousomuch gran.. 

iloveyousomuch granny. i will never forget you and the love you have given me. i am forever grateful that i grew up under your care. iloveyousomuch.

imissyou so much already granny. i know you never want to see me crying even when i was a kid. i will try hard to not cry. but allow me if only to remember that i am just human. that i will never have everything i want. as much as i want you to forever be around, it cant happen. 

no goodbyes granny. definitely no goodbyes..

i will never let go of you, of all the memories. i will keep them forever and have them to remind me that God loves me so much that He gave me the chance to experience the blessing of your life in mine.

i would have wanted you to be there when i take my oath as a lawyer. it was part of the plan. but truly, God's plans are better than mine. i know you will be there. i know you will always be with me in everything i will do, like you always did. the bar, my oath, my wedding.. every special and ordinary day in my life, you will be there. 
you need not worry about my asthma gran, or the "kudkud my back". your baby is now a lady. 


love,
gayleput

hope for the flowers

When FAILURE strikes, one might think succumbing to "giving up."

But failure over failure taught me something, "My family believes in me, that's what matters most."


My first of the month read is Trina Paulus' "HOPE FOR THE FLOWERS."

"... What's at the top?..--- no one knows that either but it must be awfully good because everybody's rushing there."

"..He didn't think he was against anybody. He was just doing what he had to if he was to get to the top.---..I've been up there; there's nothing there."

To get to the top, one must fly, not climb. 

a stripe just needs a yellow, who believes in him.


---happily hoping, stripe (=

Happy first of July!

take every chance, drop every fear!

Do what you fear and your fear disappears!

Superman Ride @ Tree Top Subic

summer sun makes me feel fine

I am trying to enjoy what's left of my summer before I go to training school. summer love makes me feel fine.☀😊🌅

chill weekend

Ever since I started work, I have two Saturdays a month dedicated to the One day,one bay. cleanup of our office. This is in responce to the Supreme Court mandamus directing certain National Government Agencies to clean-up, rehabilitate and bring back the glory that was Manila Bay. I have to wake up at 4:30 in the morning to be at the office at 5. I enjoy the work but after the clean up I am too tired to even consider going out.I head home and sleep the week's tiredness away.



After joining the clean up revolution, the trying hard superhero will head home and sleep like there's no tomorrow,

I love chill Saturdays when I can sleep all day and just lounge around my place. Thankyou Lord for chill saturdays and for sleep!

of weddings, reunions and lifetime friendships

My college best friend who I haven't seen for 5 years called me to tell me he's getting married. I knew their love story, the against all odds type of story. But through prayers, they've weathered the problems.

And on December 15, 2012, he tied the knot. Me, ze boyfriend, Bert (our block mate)  and his girlfriend Aica drove to San Carlos, Pangasinan to witness the event. Our block was not complete, old people tend to get busy. haha. I hope I'd get to see them soon! maybe, the next wedding in the batch or christening!=)

Congratulations! Mrs. Madel Campos and Mr. Cyril Campos

Being Positive is the new black.

Life is an adventure.

Life's ups and downs make the ride worth while.

This 2013, I will breathe ALL THE GOOD IN and ALL THE BAD OUT. I will live everyday to the fullest. 

Having courage does not mean that we are unafraid.having courage and showing courage mean we face our fears. When we are able to say, "I have fallen but I will get up."

Tree Drop Adventure - Rapelling

Serene as the jungle may seem, there is also something in it to quench your thirst for adrenaline rush. Flirt with the gravity by rappelling down the side of a 60-foot tree! Each descent is a unique adventure as we offer a variety of styles –the conventional, the lizard, the daring Australian style (face first).

April 7, 2013 @Subic Tree Top Adventure

faith and fate

My daughter,

I have promised to withhold no good thing from you, for you have the favor and the grace in MY sight. I see the big picture of your life and I will take good care of you always. Through the twists and turns of life, I will be with you and give you My provision. Remember that I can make a way when there seems to be no way. Look up and hold your head high because you are my child and I shall supply all your needs.

Father God