(sadsad songs playing at the background, and my sister telling me that im nag iinarte again..)
I just got home; I had coffee with two friends who removed me from the gloom I was in tonight. Thanks CHEL and EFREN. We attended mass at st.jude, the one place we (as in the high school gang) all learned to love. We heart st.jude..yey.
I was supposed to be elated from all the things that happened the past months,weeks,days and hours. I am a very lucky person,but in some way the opposite of luck comes from the other side to put things into perspective and to remind me that its not all good days, there are days you just wish you were in bed,unaware of all those things around. But right now, I am having a hard time giving a name to this pain, must be some really bad asthma attack I cannot subdue or must be all the food I took since last night(uy,chel and efren,great party,fantastic food!!) and that small amount of booze(waa!!mark,you were right. I shouldn’t have drank na lang,fatal ang effect e..argg)
So here I am, instead of absorbing all those insurance stuff, im being overly dramatic again..waa..when I am given the chance to study insurance, all I get is a nauseous feeling, but hey im still trying..(Lord, help me pass insurance and all my other subjects..woohoo..even if it meant having no boyfriend for life na..) so this is exactly where all the things are heading to,bargaining with God about the lovelife stuff..Pathetic me!!my BAD!!
As I looked around my journal, everything seemed to be about lovelife, about boyfriends..argg..when will I stop being so engrossed with all this love stuff?!!it better come to an end,NOW!!!
I recently blogged about thanking people who were there for me during that really trying time of my month..haha..thanks guys,I forgot to mention RT din pala who was telling me that things will get better..salamat RT.
I have always loved love, but sometimes I end up at the losing end of such addiction, because in the end, I always wake up reminding myself that I have to get over it..and circumstances nga naman, I received a message from a friend asking me if I was in a relationship na kasi somebody told him about the news. In fact, another friend also messaged me last week telling me about the same subject..IM NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP>>IM SINGLE!!im singe..im single..
I got home feeling all sad..a little of that sadness was removed by the LETTERS I received from EFREN AND MICH..aww..sweet..promise..and that cutie at starbucks..waaa..wow!!haha..michelle, you saw the glances and that smile before we left..woohooo..jackpot! sadly, I never got the chance to meet him, just exchanged glances and smile lang..hays…unfair unfair..haha..ooppss..this has got to stop..haha
Im no perfect person so im putting an end to all this tackiness attacking me but il be the usual kinikilig even with the lil stuff, like stories from friends about their kilig moments..weehee..(hey guys, you promised me..)
I got my friends addicted to the notes addiction..on tissue papers, receipts and just about anything where the letters of the alphabet could make a sad heart smile or a happy heart get all the more kilig..im guilty of indulging them in this no nonsense thingy.
Here are the super duper wonderful letters pla!!sweetsweet..loved it..
August 26, 2007 11: 10 pm
Starbucks tomas morato
Abi, gurl!!! It was so fun/great having spent time with you again..i missed hanging out with you, sana we could get together some more.
I feel blessed to have a friend like you. Ewan ko ba, but you have that special aura-power to light up every room you just walk into. Galling!galing tlga!
Don’t be sad na girl. The right man will come din. Who knows db, ikaw pa maunang mag invite samen sa reception.hehe..
Seriously, eng eng tlga ang lalaking manloloko sayo..they don’t know what they’re missing.
Don’t worry,we’ll always be here for you naman e..
Thanks for spending the night with us.
More starbucks to come.
More Aberdeen nights.
More man together.
More dinner/inuman together.
More power to you..
Atty. Abi!
Hehe..diko mapantayan gawa ni efren eh..un lang..=)=)=)=)
mting
Moi reply: chel, 9 years of friendship and counting, grabe you know me in flesh and blood na.you know when and how to make me happy..haha..i love you friend..mwhugs..sniffsniff..crying mode..
Im really so lucky with my friends..aww
And here’s the letter from mich’s lovey,efren..woohoo..thanks to the both of you..grabe..happy..
Imagine a girl with a smile that steeps.
Give way, for this remarkable female. Let not thwart, let not hinder,enter,instead, for better and neither for a letter through this inner invisible weather, well, whatever, but then again neither. Judge my thoughts as though its not into,as though, what the? Not please, as I plead, as I please, this whining, winding oblivion and melancholy of stupor.wink!deeply think,look,discern, get lost? Second thoughts and construe this endless field of cover. Excitement arouse, as we come to this, and then reda between the lines as you indulge as I entice this amalgam of arrangement and as you walk through, make not a conjure, what the heck is conjure? Just remember the imagination and you will remember to give some, what?why?no for this remarkable female..umm, did I mention her name is ABIGAYLE..
Moi reply:woohoo..amazing..does the word give credence to every energy, emotion you placed into letting me feel how you and mich makes me special?salamat,that would not be enough I know..basta, to efren and mich, thanks for all the love..
And here’s another pa pala efren made,amazing!!woohoo…from efren and mich!!
Allure me so, my ever subtle sight, with your inside qualities of charm and purity
Beneath the mystery of your calmness is a peace I long for, for it suits me enough
Inner beauty I suppose, fathomable, it is not.
Gaze, well I guess is an act sole to you
Appreciation is what is next if you peruse her amiability
Yet, did I fail to recognize of this blindness out of sight
Laid my eyes, and I began to see on you my
Ever subtle sight
Moi reply:whew that was really really something! Salamat for making me smile tonight.. you both made me forget about all my hang ups..super salamat.galeng!galeng tlga!!
Thank you michelle and efren..thank you..
1:37 am
So you see, I think im sick na nga tlga, I get all sadsad and then im happyhappy..sadsad because im single but happy happy that I have my friends who I love to bits and who love me in similar respect..cheers to a lifetime of friendship, endless inuman session, get aways, coffee nights, and slacking around..kahit some of us have their own family to build na, most of you in a relationship and me uberly single, im happy, because you people complement my rather insane tendencies..much love to all..
So when I get so down about being single, I just think about my friends and the things and places I’ll get to conquer with them, its more than enough..so do I need a boyfriend?NONONO..im better off alone.. tara pips, enchanted na,antipolo na, starcity na,baguio na, bahay ni jep na, pansit tugue na..meeting place:JTL 8am SHARP..haha..such memories..
I love you all..keep on shining.. sadsad gone..
